I started at 272.4, I am now at 238.1 as of my last weigh in on Saturday.
That blog is about me. My struggle with my physical world.
It's time.
I struggle not just in my physical but in my mental and spiritual worlds as well.
My hard wiring was messed up as a child. I was born imperfect. I lived a rough life. My alcoholic father was in a motorcycle accident when I was 9. He damaged his brain beyond repair. My Granny has cared for him his entire life. I have two brothers, both alcoholics. They are both great daddy's. They seem to be caring husbands. They have wives that perfectly suit them. Strong, amazing women.
Sh-tuff happened to me as a child that created emotional scars on my emotional person. I let that damage leach onto my daughter. I do it, thinking I am protecting her, or helping her. I sometimes think I am too hard, strict. I get angry when she doesn't obey me. My God gives me SO much more grace than that which I give to my daughter. That's not good. I need to work on that. I am imperfect. But I have a goal. A book full of lessons, and promises. The bible.
This blog is going to be about my spiritual battle.
To have a relationship with my Creator. To live, loving others, without being self centered (working out, and feeling good about yourself seems to create some self-centeredness).
My creator, in 2006, showed Himself to me while I was reading the bible from front to back. I was is Psalms.
17: Prayer with Confidence in Final Salvation
18: God the Sovereign Savior
19:The Perfect Revelation of the Lord
- the law of the Yahweh is perfect, THE BIBLE
- coverting the soul;
- Even literary critics who claim no faith in the truth tof the bible attest to its being the most completely reliable of any book transmitted from antiquity, in terms of its actually remaining unchanged and dependably accurate.
- the testimony of the Yahweh is sure,
- making wise the simple.
- the statutes of Yahweh are right,
- rejoicing in the heart;
- the commandment of Yahweh is pure, Love God, Love Others as Yourself
- enlightening the eyes;
- the fear of Yahweh is clean,
- enduring forever;
- the judgments of Yahweh are true and righteous altogether.
- More to be desired are they than gold
- yea, than much fine gold;
- sweeter also than honey and the honeycomb.
- Moreover by them Your servant is warned,
- and in keeping them there is a great reward.
